lost_z
03-17-2010, 11:41 AM
Hello ppl
This year i was supposed to give my 12th exams
Problem is - Im not.
So let me backtrack a little...I'd like to believe I was a good student, the top of the class, debates, olympiads, quizes (went for BQC once). All in all, my parents and teachers believed I had a lot of potential. That is, up till 9th.
By the time I had passed Eighth standard (got 93.%), I had begun getting overconfident and disillusioned. Add some teen-rebellion and bad company and within 6 months I was doing stuff I am not proud of. But I didn't stop there and did something truly horrific that I am sure will haunt me for the rest of my life. Something that chills me and makes me want to kill myself. When I realized what a truly terrible freakish devil I had become, I had do courage left and ran away from it. I was in tenth standard then. I would bunk all my classes, had no friends, wouldn't even talk to people-not even my parents. I tried studying but I just couldn't. I would stare at the book for hours on end perpetually stuck on a line: re-reading it a million times. Somehow I gave my tenth board exams and got 82%.
For 11th I persuaded my parents to send me to Kota for JEE coaching 'coz I wanted to get away and try to forget whatever happened. Things began looking up for me in Kota. The first few months, I put all my efforts towards my studies; hardly had any time to think about anything else. But then I receded back into depression-I would be locked all day in my hostel room not knowing if it was day or night and just doing nothing going out only to the mess. When I came to my hometown, my family was shocked to see my gaunt, unshaven, shabby haired, extremely thin countenance. By now all their suspicions that something was amiss in my life were more than that. They didn't let me go back to Kota and I remained in Lucknow. My admission for 11th had been done in a school in Lucknow for which attendance wasn't necessary, I was only required to give the exam: something which I ignored. I was still promoted to 12th, though I still couldn't study. Trying to study or memorize was like pouring water into a bottom-less bucket. When I refused to give the exams my parents and family became really really worried by my situation. Finally one of my sisters was able to talk some sense into me and I came clean on whatever I had done in the past. She made me confront my actions and apologize and inspired me to remember who I was and what I have to do.
So now I have decided that I want to do right whatever I had done wrong: all the expectation of my family that I have put down and all the trust I have lost. But at this stage I am in dire need of guidance. My ultimate goal is qualifying JEE. To appear in JEE I have to pass 12th. But this year I have been registered for the JEE-2010. Now my question to you, dear patient reader, is that since IIT allows only 2 attempts in consecutive years after one has first passed his/her qualification exam. So I want to know how many attempts of JEE do I have left? Do I get two attempts after I pass my exam or 2 in all.
Please advise me with a solution for this mess I have created for myself.
I am grateful for your patience and help.
This year i was supposed to give my 12th exams
Problem is - Im not.
So let me backtrack a little...I'd like to believe I was a good student, the top of the class, debates, olympiads, quizes (went for BQC once). All in all, my parents and teachers believed I had a lot of potential. That is, up till 9th.
By the time I had passed Eighth standard (got 93.%), I had begun getting overconfident and disillusioned. Add some teen-rebellion and bad company and within 6 months I was doing stuff I am not proud of. But I didn't stop there and did something truly horrific that I am sure will haunt me for the rest of my life. Something that chills me and makes me want to kill myself. When I realized what a truly terrible freakish devil I had become, I had do courage left and ran away from it. I was in tenth standard then. I would bunk all my classes, had no friends, wouldn't even talk to people-not even my parents. I tried studying but I just couldn't. I would stare at the book for hours on end perpetually stuck on a line: re-reading it a million times. Somehow I gave my tenth board exams and got 82%.
For 11th I persuaded my parents to send me to Kota for JEE coaching 'coz I wanted to get away and try to forget whatever happened. Things began looking up for me in Kota. The first few months, I put all my efforts towards my studies; hardly had any time to think about anything else. But then I receded back into depression-I would be locked all day in my hostel room not knowing if it was day or night and just doing nothing going out only to the mess. When I came to my hometown, my family was shocked to see my gaunt, unshaven, shabby haired, extremely thin countenance. By now all their suspicions that something was amiss in my life were more than that. They didn't let me go back to Kota and I remained in Lucknow. My admission for 11th had been done in a school in Lucknow for which attendance wasn't necessary, I was only required to give the exam: something which I ignored. I was still promoted to 12th, though I still couldn't study. Trying to study or memorize was like pouring water into a bottom-less bucket. When I refused to give the exams my parents and family became really really worried by my situation. Finally one of my sisters was able to talk some sense into me and I came clean on whatever I had done in the past. She made me confront my actions and apologize and inspired me to remember who I was and what I have to do.
So now I have decided that I want to do right whatever I had done wrong: all the expectation of my family that I have put down and all the trust I have lost. But at this stage I am in dire need of guidance. My ultimate goal is qualifying JEE. To appear in JEE I have to pass 12th. But this year I have been registered for the JEE-2010. Now my question to you, dear patient reader, is that since IIT allows only 2 attempts in consecutive years after one has first passed his/her qualification exam. So I want to know how many attempts of JEE do I have left? Do I get two attempts after I pass my exam or 2 in all.
Please advise me with a solution for this mess I have created for myself.
I am grateful for your patience and help.